Its October 2, 2006. Happy Birthday to my siter, Nur Fatihah binti Rusli

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Although there were just 3 classes today, it was tiring. I didnt wake up for sahur. Ikhwan and Kamil did try to wake me up, but I was too sleepy slash tired slash lazy to step my feet out of the bed. So, end up hungry since 8 am.

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Eventually, I cannot really focus these days. I dont know why. I almost lost my spirit and determination in everything. Last minutes works is kinda common to me now..and postponing revision is something I dont even bother to worry about. I dont even bother to concentrate on lectures especially chemistry when I dont even know what the hell is the lecturer is talking about..and he kept on repeating the same thing in the same cant-be-understood way..What happen to me? Did I lost something..? What should I search for now? Is anything I missed..somewhere?..I dont know. I tried to figure out. But nothing seems to appear in this small little brain. So, i just get along with that..until I found some ways for me to turn me to my real focus.

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I am not sad. I do laugh a lot with my frens. Some new frens. And I try not to be alone.

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And oh yah..the Physics lab today was a total disaster. We managed to do…nothing. The computer didnt detect the hardware..we moved to another computer…then this fckin computer’s software has some stupid setting failure..Damn it. I hate technical problem that can only be accessed by admin people..bullshit..so we just combined with some other students from another group… I stayed away. I am too tired to complain and explain. I just want to shut up and let everything flow. So i let Enol and Alip do the task.. I walked out to the toilet. Sitting doing nothing. Releasing emotional pressure.

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Well, its the new election season for UTP. I dont even know about the manisfesto or any election-type of activities that are going on in the college. Maybe the communication crew of some student body here is not working so hard to inform us..or maybe its because of my ignorance towards…everything. So, good luck for all the people involved. I may be voting..maybe. I dont even know any of those people. So, vote based on looks…or the uniqueness of the name..or randomness…or..anything rational. So long MPPUTP for the next dysfunctional term.

vote for a change. we’ll see about that.